Random,Mixed,Confusion.

Alright.Its the 1st weekend of August.i decided to update some stuff.The 1st week of August?There are 2 parts.the 1st part was hell.luckily the 2nd part that is till today was better.=)

On Tuesday.my bicycle tire punctured,not even 10 days since i last changed.found out the rubber quality from last shop sucked big time!..payed rm13..Nvm..THE NEXT DAY!tyre puncture AGAIN!GG-ED...went to the shop again..for no reason it puncture and yea rm13 again..rm26 just fly FREE!..Nice?..Besides that,i am still feeling pretty moody as in sad or neutral mood.

On Thursday,we celebrated classmates birthday angel and Zoe.it was great and I'm the cameraman.as usual LoL..we ate dinner and hangout at the lake till around 2am..check out the pictures at facebook!(i posted the group photo here though)

And then as for today.i spend my day at CC and assignment from around 5-10pm..was tiring but we almost finish it.great!time passes so quickly eh?i still remember what happen last week and even this week.Its still so clear in my mind.and think again.it already a week!=)

Alright,I'm going back to Penang next week.but 1st i have 2 presentation to settle.after that I'm free and exam!..

This week is not a good week for me.i can say that much.Hopefully things will turn for the better in the later month.I'm always happy but deep inside my heart i always keep my sadness and sorrows there=)

Hmm..Finally,i still do think about her.But I'm now slowly step by step getting used to the current condition-As Friends..Oh not to mention..im not into 爱 for now..I really lost my confident.not cause of her or anyone.Its from myself =)..But hey I'm strong.i will just be just me who free from all these troublesome stuff.

PS.I hate Love(no offense to others)xD.Its sweet when u are happy,But its damn bitter when things just dont go your way.

Thx for reading

My 100-th Post!

Yay!cant believe its finally the 100th post.Been writing alot without realizing it myself..Lets start it.Last week thursday its our test and on that day itself many of us in UTAR got food poisoning..including myself..vomited 3times..and yeah..its pretty bad!luckily i recovered by saturday.Thank God..Today we just finish our radio play and it went very very well.We received lots of great comment..and finished maths test as well..2 more assignments and presentation to go!

Moving on.The post this time may sound normal but its not coz my heart is seriously injured =)..my cousin from France are coming back on Wednesday and will be going to hong kong for a week!i will back next weekend and hopefully will be able to spend as much time as i can with him!

This month is the last month to study before exam..I'm gonna fully focus on my exam and nothing more.no more time to play or entertainment:D...Good luck KKG!

PS check out my class photo =) nice right xD

Scary thoughts

Today i was awaken by a event.Its a friend of mine who had a very controlling boyfriend.or should i say over-caring maybe?i wont blame the guy or the girl either..no one is wrong.

The guy are like that because he over-cared for his love ones..afraid that she might be lied,tricked or cheated.But he never knew that his girl are far more better and independent than that.Its not that she don't love him,She LOVE him and i can see that.I just feel sad for them as i understand what is the guy going through now.Hes afraid of the change of hearts by her i guess,jealousy. frustration.not letting her mix with guys,or joining them for any events.I feel so Shamed yet i cant do a thing as i don't want to butt in other people's business.

What i wanna say here is..will i be the same in the future?im not anything like it now but will i be?i dont know.im not sure but im very worried and scared.Usually this happens on a long relationship.Oh well here i am again..worrying over unnecessary things again LoL...BUt lets be honest.this is a real turn off for any relationship.i believe that before u want to judge what your love ones did or done.loook and ask yourself!how come i did this and she cant do it too?how come i did that and she cant do that as well?why?i can mix with girls but why she cant go out with boys?I always think that these few question will really make a lot of sense.Am i correct?whatever it is i believe that giving freedom to each other is the best.If a couple cant even trust each other then why couple?might as well be friends then.Hmm i hope what i write here will really help those who are in the same trouble =)

Anyway for myself..hopefully in the future i wont treat her like that and i will only treat her as what i am now :)..God Bless all of us

This is me as in Today =)

Exams,Assignments

The exam is in a month time..the deadline for assignments are getting near.Test keep on coming and coming every single week.i have been slacking off quite a lot these few weeks.Now is the time.1 Month.I will need to study 100% for these 1 month..This week and next week will be stressful for me as i got a 3 assignments and 2 test to complete.I wonder if i can handle it.Don't really have much confidence in myself this time around.But i know i can do it.

As for Life..my cousin Vivien from France are coming to Malaysia next month.its been almost 5 years since i last saw him.i was told to go back next week.hopefully i can because I'm tied by the tight schedule here.I need to pray that i can settle everything before then =)

Oh..Next year she wont be coming to Utar anymore.Instead shes going to ktar penang probably.I'm ok with that but deep inside my heart it still hurts =(..i will feel better after some time haha..its something i expected but the impact are still so great on me.I guess I'm the type that will always go for long distance relationship :D..It is hard at times but long distance have its good as well..

All right enough on that.tomorrow is an all black attire on college and U..most probably i will wear full formal lol...I'm not sure yet..will update later..for now gotta go to bed..Thx for reading

Connexion 2010-PassITOn

Hey guys!I'm back.Went to KL on friday and came back to kampar today.It a great experience.the connexion this year teaches us about sharing and believing of God Jesus.and we do have break out sessions which are very interesting.

So Friday me and alson went by bus at 3.30pm and reach around 7.Thank God we weren't late as we were stuck in the traffic for almost an hour.we were picked up by cheras baptist church van,thx mr. Darryl .It began with great worship and preaching by pastor Calvin.there were a lot of people that night from all over the world.it was great to see both old and new friends.

The next day was interesting.start at 9.30 and ends at 10pm.we got worshipping,preaching breakout sessions and great lunch provided.we even played some Frisbee =)..i guess this time i will let the picture do the talking..I'm feeling tired sorry xD..till then!

Connexion 2010

Finally its friday!I'm gonna go down to kl though bus at 3pm later with kia chin!feeling excited but also feel kinda lazy to travel xD...but i know its gonna be worth as i have lots of people expecting me there =)

Recently,I've been feeling very happy and something happen too yesterday but I'm not gonna mention it here.privacy 1st haha..I'm having a really good time with my classmate.I'm slowly becoming more and more of myself with them now..very outgoing and noisy haha..super hyper haha!

I'm having a lot of stress from test and assignment as usual but being with them just relaxes me and of course there is someone that makes me feel at ease everyday =)..I'm having high expectation for next month=august.theres a chance i may able to meet 'her'!and there will be presentations and finally exam ~.~....so i really need to study hard and hopefully i really can achieve my target..i need to stop online on august..seriously.im afraid but i do have the confidence =)..

Oh i heard theres a rapist or something in kampar,i dont really believe it but its better to be careful than sorry guys..for girls please dont be alone.find a guy or frens to accompany u whenever u go out..its for ur own safety :)..im especially worried bout my friends though haha!

Anyway i gotta go to bed..i promised to sleep early.so goodnite guys will update on sunday with photos from connexion XD

Lol so many girls @.@
Its kinda dark but i like it =)
And this are taken today hehe

Unwavering Love

I know its surprising but i wanted to write it here.I have a girl that i really love and care about right now.shes younger than me.and shes in penang of course.we havent meet yet so far.

Alright for our progress.i told her i like her and it all began.i gave her time to decide,slowly till december,or mayb later or sooner?who knows?..

The main point here is,will our relationship work?she have a strict parents,and not much freedom still.we got a lot of obstacles and yet im not giving up.i ask myself>why do i wanna choose her when there are so many other girls where i can get easier?well that's love i guess.The problem with me is,once i make a decision i wont change especially a promise which i made already.I really like her and i accepted her past, and I don't like her because shes beautiful or anything,but i like her for her personality,for who she is and then comes her look.(get me?lol)

Getting to like her have really changed me quite a lot,i don't play video games that much anymore,i study more often now and then,i played guitar and do more outdoor activities instead of facing the computer.We spoke and shared a lot of things together but till now we haven't got a chance to meet yet.so hopefully next month i will be able to meet her and i believe we will progress a lot from there.

Distance is a problem too,lets say she doesn't come to Utar,kampar next year.i wont get to meet her as often as i want-again,i don't really mind about that as we can keep contact.But if she go to other college or U will we stay strong like we are now?.i know i sound sarcastic but I'm just really worried from what i experience my last relationship.I'm really scare of the 'hurt' feeling.yea I'm a guy so what?I'm still scared.As i mentioned before,nothing scares me more than love.

I tell myself,why don't i just give up and give excuses to throw her aside and find someone here at kampar which are more convenient.I wanted to but too bad that's not me and it don't work that way because shes already in my heart =)

Some may know who is the girl I'm talking about,some may not...all that i have just written here are my worries.it doesn't mean anything.I just wanted to share it out.i cant keep it inside of me anymore.All i need now is patience and self control.I know my patience will pay off well.If it don't i will just have to accept it xD

Here ends about my tale of chasing a girl.thx for reading this Noob post =)

P.S God knows whether we will be together or not.But i promise i wont give her up,unless something like parents stand in between then i had to let her go.But till then i will stand strong!Hopefully it works.Wish Me luck :D