Future :)

Firstly thanks for the concern guys,i appreciate it haha..but this is a feeling that i kept deep inside my heart for a long time..i finally decided to share with u guys :D..anyway as for now i still prefer to be single although i will accept a relationship if it permits..so dont worry and im ok!xD..too free the mind also keep on thinking noob things =,=...ok thats it :)

Note:regarding the last post,its trues and if there may be a chance.I will start it :D

Doubts

Its already been a month and left 1 more month for me to start my studies in kampar.i had the sudden urge to write blog as i had something to share with u guys!
1 thing in particular is about what I'm feeling right now..i don't know how to start,but i can say that I'm currently starting to fall in love again but im doubting myself and held that feeling back..I'm fighting against it by thinking to myself 'don't love yet,u cant do it'.yea i know this is stupid.I'm currently still facing the fear of love and although i advice and help people get through their love thingy i myself cant do it.Wat a shame :(

What i had in mind now?I would like to try again,that is to have a relationship and hopefully it will work,as i am very immature in my love last time(1st time)..I would really appreciate and work on it if i were to be given another shot.

Why am i afraid to confront love?because when im in love i 'changed'..u guys wont know that but its true.i realised it myself.I become hot headed,short tempered,impatient,control freak?,easily jealous(hard to believe but true)!...well thats like 2 1/2 years ago haha..although its already that long im still afraid.I already have a girl in my heart but all these things are stopping me and it is very hard on me..im still trying to figure out whether to fight it or back away from it as always..sighs~.

The bottom line is,i may be good in everything but not love..when it comes to love i shrink :)

Note:the picture are the scene taken at KLCC when i am back in KL.

Long Awaited Post

As most of u guys already know,i am back to penang!its been 2 weeks now and i still miss kl honetly ><..the lrt,buses,busy lives at KL...hmm..the special food!haha!anyway i learned a lot in kl as i mentioned in my last post which were ages ago LoL.And i also met a few new friends there and workmate as well.i miss them and hope to see them again.it was short but meaningful.I would also like to thank my uncle and aunt for taking care of me these past few months.The things they taught me are still in my mind till now.

Alright back to penang.i think many of u don't know yet but 2 days after i back to penang,my dog rocky passed away in front of me..it was very sad, I'm still trying to get used to it sigh~..nothing much happen since i back except for chengbeng and going out with friends.

Going to utar on June,cant wait to start my studies.umm..theres one thing i would like to have an attention here.Its about the sudden changes i experience after i back here to penang.

I was surprised to know that a few of my friends,not acquaintance but close ones changed!not better but worse..i don't really wanna mention any further.But i will say this.i appreciate my friends,i love them,and i adore them.cause without them I'm nothing.so it really really hurts me if u guys suddenly change.its like stabbing a sword through my heart!I don't like to complain,but if it gets on my nerve that's it!LOL...

anyway i need to get to bed soon.need to renew license and find a temporary job till i go Utar..Thx for reading xD