Scary thoughts

Today i was awaken by a event.Its a friend of mine who had a very controlling boyfriend.or should i say over-caring maybe?i wont blame the guy or the girl either..no one is wrong.

The guy are like that because he over-cared for his love ones..afraid that she might be lied,tricked or cheated.But he never knew that his girl are far more better and independent than that.Its not that she don't love him,She LOVE him and i can see that.I just feel sad for them as i understand what is the guy going through now.Hes afraid of the change of hearts by her i guess,jealousy. frustration.not letting her mix with guys,or joining them for any events.I feel so Shamed yet i cant do a thing as i don't want to butt in other people's business.

What i wanna say here is..will i be the same in the future?im not anything like it now but will i be?i dont know.im not sure but im very worried and scared.Usually this happens on a long relationship.Oh well here i am again..worrying over unnecessary things again LoL...BUt lets be honest.this is a real turn off for any relationship.i believe that before u want to judge what your love ones did or done.loook and ask yourself!how come i did this and she cant do it too?how come i did that and she cant do that as well?why?i can mix with girls but why she cant go out with boys?I always think that these few question will really make a lot of sense.Am i correct?whatever it is i believe that giving freedom to each other is the best.If a couple cant even trust each other then why couple?might as well be friends then.Hmm i hope what i write here will really help those who are in the same trouble =)

Anyway for myself..hopefully in the future i wont treat her like that and i will only treat her as what i am now :)..God Bless all of us

This is me as in Today =)

Exams,Assignments

The exam is in a month time..the deadline for assignments are getting near.Test keep on coming and coming every single week.i have been slacking off quite a lot these few weeks.Now is the time.1 Month.I will need to study 100% for these 1 month..This week and next week will be stressful for me as i got a 3 assignments and 2 test to complete.I wonder if i can handle it.Don't really have much confidence in myself this time around.But i know i can do it.

As for Life..my cousin Vivien from France are coming to Malaysia next month.its been almost 5 years since i last saw him.i was told to go back next week.hopefully i can because I'm tied by the tight schedule here.I need to pray that i can settle everything before then =)

Oh..Next year she wont be coming to Utar anymore.Instead shes going to ktar penang probably.I'm ok with that but deep inside my heart it still hurts =(..i will feel better after some time haha..its something i expected but the impact are still so great on me.I guess I'm the type that will always go for long distance relationship :D..It is hard at times but long distance have its good as well..

All right enough on that.tomorrow is an all black attire on college and U..most probably i will wear full formal lol...I'm not sure yet..will update later..for now gotta go to bed..Thx for reading

Connexion 2010-PassITOn

Hey guys!I'm back.Went to KL on friday and came back to kampar today.It a great experience.the connexion this year teaches us about sharing and believing of God Jesus.and we do have break out sessions which are very interesting.

So Friday me and alson went by bus at 3.30pm and reach around 7.Thank God we weren't late as we were stuck in the traffic for almost an hour.we were picked up by cheras baptist church van,thx mr. Darryl .It began with great worship and preaching by pastor Calvin.there were a lot of people that night from all over the world.it was great to see both old and new friends.

The next day was interesting.start at 9.30 and ends at 10pm.we got worshipping,preaching breakout sessions and great lunch provided.we even played some Frisbee =)..i guess this time i will let the picture do the talking..I'm feeling tired sorry xD..till then!

Connexion 2010

Finally its friday!I'm gonna go down to kl though bus at 3pm later with kia chin!feeling excited but also feel kinda lazy to travel xD...but i know its gonna be worth as i have lots of people expecting me there =)

Recently,I've been feeling very happy and something happen too yesterday but I'm not gonna mention it here.privacy 1st haha..I'm having a really good time with my classmate.I'm slowly becoming more and more of myself with them now..very outgoing and noisy haha..super hyper haha!

I'm having a lot of stress from test and assignment as usual but being with them just relaxes me and of course there is someone that makes me feel at ease everyday =)..I'm having high expectation for next month=august.theres a chance i may able to meet 'her'!and there will be presentations and finally exam ~.~....so i really need to study hard and hopefully i really can achieve my target..i need to stop online on august..seriously.im afraid but i do have the confidence =)..

Oh i heard theres a rapist or something in kampar,i dont really believe it but its better to be careful than sorry guys..for girls please dont be alone.find a guy or frens to accompany u whenever u go out..its for ur own safety :)..im especially worried bout my friends though haha!

Anyway i gotta go to bed..i promised to sleep early.so goodnite guys will update on sunday with photos from connexion XD

Lol so many girls @.@
Its kinda dark but i like it =)
And this are taken today hehe

Unwavering Love

I know its surprising but i wanted to write it here.I have a girl that i really love and care about right now.shes younger than me.and shes in penang of course.we havent meet yet so far.

Alright for our progress.i told her i like her and it all began.i gave her time to decide,slowly till december,or mayb later or sooner?who knows?..

The main point here is,will our relationship work?she have a strict parents,and not much freedom still.we got a lot of obstacles and yet im not giving up.i ask myself>why do i wanna choose her when there are so many other girls where i can get easier?well that's love i guess.The problem with me is,once i make a decision i wont change especially a promise which i made already.I really like her and i accepted her past, and I don't like her because shes beautiful or anything,but i like her for her personality,for who she is and then comes her look.(get me?lol)

Getting to like her have really changed me quite a lot,i don't play video games that much anymore,i study more often now and then,i played guitar and do more outdoor activities instead of facing the computer.We spoke and shared a lot of things together but till now we haven't got a chance to meet yet.so hopefully next month i will be able to meet her and i believe we will progress a lot from there.

Distance is a problem too,lets say she doesn't come to Utar,kampar next year.i wont get to meet her as often as i want-again,i don't really mind about that as we can keep contact.But if she go to other college or U will we stay strong like we are now?.i know i sound sarcastic but I'm just really worried from what i experience my last relationship.I'm really scare of the 'hurt' feeling.yea I'm a guy so what?I'm still scared.As i mentioned before,nothing scares me more than love.

I tell myself,why don't i just give up and give excuses to throw her aside and find someone here at kampar which are more convenient.I wanted to but too bad that's not me and it don't work that way because shes already in my heart =)

Some may know who is the girl I'm talking about,some may not...all that i have just written here are my worries.it doesn't mean anything.I just wanted to share it out.i cant keep it inside of me anymore.All i need now is patience and self control.I know my patience will pay off well.If it don't i will just have to accept it xD

Here ends about my tale of chasing a girl.thx for reading this Noob post =)

P.S God knows whether we will be together or not.But i promise i wont give her up,unless something like parents stand in between then i had to let her go.But till then i will stand strong!Hopefully it works.Wish Me luck :D

Bon Odori 2010+Updates

Hey guys,sorry it took a week for me to update again.Been busy with quite a few things.mainly TESTS,assignments and entertainment =).

Lets start with utar.i had my economics test on thursday last week.hopefully i can do well as i only know about 50-50.and then~

I went back to penang on friday the next day.I was very happy and sad too as i know i still couldnt meet 'her' yet.And so here comes PENANG!i woke up at 7+am to send my mom to work as i need to use her car.I slept at like 3am on friday night lol.so i only had 4 hours of sleep.and after i finished sending her,i came back and play some games and without realizing its already 11am.so i head out and went to fetch my friends.we went to papa rich at penang e-gate,and then to gurney to watch twilight!its a great movie but i dont really like bella..i like her but not on this series LoL..the way she act makes her so 'slutty' like from a phrase she told edward >i love him,but i love you more< =.=..what the hell is this?anyway i wont make further comment on this movie xD

Now we move on to the bon odori,in others words some japanese dance festival to worship their ancestor or something.IT IS NOT A GHOST FESTIVAL!pls get this right.alot of people though its ghost festival but its not at all!.about this year we seemed kinda boring,keep on thinking what to do because we attend bon odori for like 4 years straight already?so everything looks the same,in the end we are all expecting the fireworks =)..it was great.go to my profile and view it!and alot of pictures too.

I'm having my maths test tomorrow,I'm not prepared yet.nor I'm intending to do Lol..Oh I'm going to Kl this weekend for the connexion conference 2010 at cheras baptist church together with my friends.i cant wait and i know its going to be fun!but 1st i gotta settle my test and assignments 1st.

This post is kinda weird,i don't know,i just feel so Lol..probably I'm just not in the right mood to write =)

till then xD

The End Of Dunia Cawan!

Yesterday the clash between Holland and Spain ended the world cup 2010.Its a fairly interesting match but im unsatisfied with spain snatching away the win with 1-0..i was expecting holland to send spain back to 'holland' LOL...anyway grats spain =)

For my progress in life,as i mentioned in the last post,finished 2 test and hand in 2 assignment already,.had another test this coming thursday and next week as well.God Bless Me ><...i have been sick since Friday and luckily I'm feeling better now.Luckily I'm still able to finish my English script today.Phew~...

I'm going back penang this weekend for the Japanese festival aka Bon Odori at esplanade.Its a yearly thingy for us..we never miss it every year xD..i hope i will really enjoy myself this weekend!Oh i forgot.i played futsal for the 1st time last week too.it was so fun and exciting.but too bad,i got overexcited and forgot to warm up.i jump straight into the game and the result?muscle pain for few days LoL..Lesson learnt=Warm Up 1st!I'm having another one this week =)..cant wait haha!

For my personal life.nothing much had happen.I miss some of my friends as well as family and my home.hmm.there is something that i always wonder.why do i always had to go for the difficult ones,when there are easier ways and choices?I'm really happy but sometimes i just feel so demoralized..hmm maybe that life eh?LoL

Anyway i think that's all..just updating a Lil' bit..I almost forget.celebrated Leo's birthday this week too LoL..it was fun and i get to know new friends =)

Till then TaTa~

Memories

Hello,Welcome and enjoy this post =)This is a post of memories and what i found recently xD

I will start off from wednesday that is after my maths test,it went well,probably coz i studied like 4 hours for it =) hardwork pays!and then i went back to penang on the night of the next day.

The trip back to penang this time was great..i went for movie with NoobPao,Yee Leng And The NOOB RAYSON! for Karate Kid!Never Say Never eh?haha..its a great lengthy movie though.worth your money so whatcha waiting for?get your tickets now!

For saturday ,i helped my mom move my house again,theres still things to be moved from my old house..while going through all the old things,i found my old toys,my kindergarten Books?standard 1 book..as well as my childhood toys!my power rangers model,beast wars,masked riders,dragonball,dinosaur!!and many more..oh and battery operated toys!u cant find it now anymore,i can guarantee u that!and so we went on and i found pictures and some old stuff of my dad's..hes really handsome last time,i didn't know and i though the young him was a superstar lol..anyway like father like son eh?HANDSOME juga la!!haha..

The next day which is today i woke up at 7am and went to penang to meet my US friends once again.i cant believe its already been a year since i last saw them,coz the last time i send them back its still fresh in my mind.its like few months ago!anyway it was both a happy and sad day..im happy i meet them again but im also very sad that i ned to say goodbye to them at the same day..Sighs~..too bad,i need to study and test,assignments waiting for me back here in kampar so i had no choice!.But i will meet lisa and kayla on the 23 and 24th july so its still ok!=)

Moving on,This week,and next week would probably cut a year or two off my life haha,just joking..im having 2 test on tuesday and wednesday..1 assignment to be hand in.another one to be hand in too next week.and im yet to start =.=...i wonder,will i be able to handle the stress?especially with the major distraction from WORLD CUP???i do hope i can do it!

Oh,and im really progressing greatly with ___!Its just a matter of time and patience.=)

Alright i guess i got to go to bed now!got a really early class tomorrow!nitez/have a nice day and thx for reading!

P.S enjoy the pictures =)